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[ November 12th, 2009 | 12:29am ] |
And everything falls to shit, just as expected. Sucks I have to be the one humiliated.
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[ November 8th, 2009 | 11:14pm ] |
I'm so in like right now. I feel like if I elaborate, it will fall to shit. That always happens, so I'll bite my tongue for now. This weekend was one of the best I've had in a while. Good friends, close family, cold beer, perfect weather, and cudddddling every night. I sound like a 7th grade girl, but I feel like one too. I've been super sick all day, just dizzy and weak, nauseous.. I haven't eaten much in the past few days, but I'm hungry as heck. I just don't think my stomach could handle that.
I'm definitely falling out of touch with people. I hangout with about four people regularly, and we get bored of eachother pretty easily, which leads to war, then boredem. Repeat. I neeed sleep. And I love the support I've gotten from a few people lately. It's really unexpected and it means a lot. I love seeing (mostly) everyone grow up and move on. Get out of that funk we were all in for a while. Breathe fresh air. Smile more. Send a random text or something...idk. I like seeing people alive and enjoying it.
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[ November 3rd, 2009 | 2:38am ] |
Fallling for someone is so much fun until you've fallen so hard and you can't get up, I like taking this slooooow. I love my life, everyday seems like a new adventure and I'm so not ready to go back to work. Maybe next week. Halloween was one of the best and worst nights of my life and tonight assured me I'm an okay girl.
It's been so nice seeing Tori, Tim and Tulley lately, I feel like they always dissappear from the family and they crack me up. My sister and I are as tight as ever. Besides the boo, Tori and Hannah occupy most of my time, as well as my cats, my journal and strangers. I'm so hung up on the past but it's safe to say my new beginning in life has started out with a bang. I guess you gotta start somewhere.
Now... taking on summer 08 and letting go of those good times is another task of it's own...
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[ October 31st, 2009 | 2:34pm ] |
Everything is leveling out -I think, and if it's not, it will be soon enough. My day's have been pretty repetative, but in a good way. I'm all mixed up, always. I'm kind of stressed and ready to move out! I wish things didn't have to be so difficult, but that is proof that it's true so I'm soaking it all in.
I hate my mom. She is such a backstabbing whore. Just when I thought we were getting close for the first time in my life, she fucks with my trust.
Everyone in my life is so childish. Especially you. And everytime I come close to decappitating you, you make it all better, WTF?
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[ October 16th, 2009 | 2:42am ] |
I have gone completley bonkers for doing this, but I am happy. So so so so fucking happy. I can't wipe this stupid fucking smile off my face to save my life.
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[ October 14th, 2009 | 8:39pm ] |
Wellll, honestly I could probaly write for days about how I happy I am with a certain someone, but I'd rather not.
I'm taking a 2 week medical leave from work hopefully I'll get myself better soon! I have an emergency appt. in Atlanta next week to see a specialist, and I'm not excited about that at all. I need a fucking break... I hate having a body with absolutely no immunity at all. I should just become a hermit and live in a room made completely out of Lysol. I'm tired of dealing with this, but I'm stronger than ever right now. Mentally and emotionally at least.
Now, If I could stop having seizures and do things on my own again, and be alone again I would be so happy. I'm looking for somewhere else to live, even though I don't know what I would do living without my nurse/mom to make me feel better all the time. I love my family, especially my sisters. I love my dad more and more, he still hasn't seen my NY Yankees tattoo, but he will. Aaaad, I really appreciate my mom walking through tthe fiery pits of hell just so I can feel better. My friends are really unnecessary at this point and that's okay. Janie and I are no longer going to continue our friendship, but that's not anyones buisness why. I wish I could go to Connecticut with my grandparents this week :( Oh weeelll.
Add me on FB if you haven't yet, search me: Ansley Neidhardt.
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[ August 22nd, 2009 | 3:32pm ] |
I have reached my equilibrium, I am happy, and you neglect that fact that nothing you say really is of importance to me. You keep venturing into the weaknesses you see in me.I'm sure from your end of the spectrum it is exasperating to try so hard to get the attention you must have never had. I could sit here and speak improperly and unethically of you, but I won't. I will apologize that you have never had the love you deserve from your friends, lovers or family members.I have.
I know e x a c t l y what it's like to be loved by my friends, and Janie and Tyler have introduced me to a whole new world of perturbation and feeling so comfortable to be myself as unstable as I am at times, and know that they will still love me, regardless.Lovers: They come and go, but I've felt love mutually. Physically. Emotionally. Spiritually. A few moments in my life I knew I was the world to someone, as hard as it is to explain.As for family: My sister Hannah has given me life and a reason to feel vital. Mary has pushed me into setting better examples, and I was forced into responsibility when she was born and my parents have given me everything they could from day one.
Now, don't get me wrong:Tyler and I fight like cats and dogs, and Janie and I are at a rough patch in our lives.My truest, purest love is no longer mine anymore.My sisters push me to the edge and back, and my parents have very little money.But it's safe to say all the good moments equal out to the feeling of happiness.
I'm sorry no one perplexes your existence. I feel sorry that there is no one or nothing in your life to give you focus. Instead you are uncomfortable with yourself therefore we are all forced to hear the worst. We expect it. You are shocking no one. Good luck finding someone that has even a slight worry about you with the way you treat others.
Seriously, I mean it. Good fucking luck.
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[ August 17th, 2009 | 4:53am ] |
When I fuckup, I fuck up royally. Here's to you being alive, and here's to me being too smitten with you. Let's just hope these nihilistic habits don't continue.
What's next? and What the fuck am I doing with my life? I am happy to see 90% of my friends go to college and 60% of them off in another city. It must be nice, as for me, I'll be here in Brunswick, working my ass off. I'm giving myself a one year deadline that I will be out of this town by September of 2010. I need to get my things together and leave some people behind. It will be for the best. I need fresh air and room to enjoy it. Living in my parent's laundry room isn't very becoming of me. I must get on a schedule that is in synch with the rest of the world. Seems as if everyone in Live Journal is doing great, and I'm happy to see the positive posts. I, as well, am extremely content.
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[ August 5th, 2009 | 1:52am ] |
Whoooo has a cute little ghetto jumping bean boyfriend?
I do!
Fresh start.
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[ July 23rd, 2009 | 10:53pm ] |
What have I done? and Why do I keep doing this?
I'm feeling kind of shitty lately, watching all my friends get ready for college, while I'm not going to school yet. My time will come, I feel no need to rush. I grew up too fast and now is my time to enjoy myself... I don't get on here much, I think I'll make a new blog for myself. I have so many memories on this thing though, Janie, Levi the numerous ex boyfriends and best friends, that have woven their way into my posts. I could type for days, but I'm going to keep it simple and keep it positive, because if I let my fingers run around this keyboard any longer, something bad is bound to be typed.
I just don't know if I'm prepared for the 28th. That will be the hardest day I've had in a while, every memory is becoming so much more vivid the closer it gets to that day.
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[ July 12th, 2009 | 2:28pm ] |
My little blonde-haired blue-eyed baby boy, I swear my family just wanted another Neidhardt. He is the sweetest thing. He's actually asleep vertically on my leg right now. He's 2 pounds and 12 weeks old. He's still got another pound to gain and he's full size, but he is presh. I just think he's too small. I feel bad for him because the cats pop him in the head all day long, poor thing. He's already spoiled and he's already chosen favorites (yours truly) He is such a mama's boy!
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[ June 23rd, 2009 | 10:46am ] |
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It's 10:47 a.m. I'm never up this early. Evan left for Wyoming this morning so of course I was also up at 6 a.m. to tell him bye. I'm going to sleep until he gets to Denver....Completely pointless post. Not to mention, I'm working today.
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[ June 22nd, 2009 | 2:22am ] |
Craziness...
I have recently become a workaholic, hopefully this week I'll train as a bartender, which I have been DYING to do! I feel like hanging out with Kristen 24/7 as well. Life is such a trapeeze(?), a balancing act of sorts. Evan and I just got into our first argument...But it was a quick and little one, haha. He's in Wyoming until Sunday so it will be another 2 weeks at least until I see him again:/ If I could quit my job I would have all the time in the world to do anything I wanted, but just a few more months...
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[ June 9th, 2009 | 2:33am ] |
I've been super busy. Working 5 days a week, and sleeping all day. Going out all night after work.
I'm going to get tattooed with Tori tomorrow night, for her late birthday present. I've been looking at wedding dresses for an hour now, so I decided to get on here and blog a little bit. I'm supposed to go get my transcripts tomorrow, but I'm too busy.
I'm joining the Air Force. My family doesn't have the money to pay for me to go to school, and I will happily serve my country for four years to get a free education. If I enjoy the Air Force I might make a career out of it and go into nursing for wounded soldiers and retire young. If not I'll get my teaching degree and be a high school teacher. I know the Air Force is brutal but I am 100% for it. My dad loves the idea. My mom is scared shitless. The chances are high that I could be rejected because of my health conditions, but I haven't researched it yet. I'm scared to know.
ANYWAYS-
I'm so happy to see Delilah and her little baby bump, this child is about to be S P O I L E D by his aunt Ansley.
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[ May 29th, 2009 | 10:30am ] |
I graduated last night. I don't even know how I feel about it.
I've been partying all week, and last night we got a campsite, but of course Kristen and I got absolutely NO sleep last night, because Jordan and Tyler are just obnoxious sleepers. Kristen and I were smushed together all night, but it was definitley a night to remember. We have the campsite again tonight, but I needed to come home and actually sleep. Keith will be back around four. My phone never stays charged anymore, but I'm totally fine with it. I HATE call phones, I really mean that. I'm still debating on college. All my friends are going and I don't want to be the loser that doesn't go. Right now I'm looking into being a high school literature teacher.
Yadda yadda yaddda....
P.S. FUCK ALLERGY SEASON.
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[ May 25th, 2009 | 1:14pm ] |
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They just keep on hatin' and I just keep on laughin. Life is good. Work work work.
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[ May 20th, 2009 | 1:00am ] |
Yipppppppity yap yap yap...
I win always, I love you<3
Today was my dad's birthday and I always know how to prove I'm his favorite. I've beeen rakin' in some grad cashhh. This weather sucks and I took tomorrow off so I could sleep:) Heheheee. (Don't think you were doing me a favor, honey) I keeep jumping between shit in my head. I need a cigarette and my baybaybybaybay. I'm stoooooked for my family reunion and shit. I love Janieee, I hate her mom.
You..-follow me on twitter- ANSLEYNEIDHARDT
and keep stalking me, okay?
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[ May 16th, 2009 | 8:51pm ] |
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I love these girls. I love my life.
I've been thinking about what to do with all this money I have, and I think I'm gonna buy a new car. I did splurge quite a bit today, I got Bestey Johnson sunglasss ($65!) and some Marc Jacobs Daisy. Next weekend is my family reunion and I am SO excited to see my family and friends I haven't seen in years. Then the weekend after that is Graduation, how crazy! My mom wants me to move back in sooo bad, and I have puppy-dog fever.
I should've gone to Tybee with Evan tonight!
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[ May 8th, 2009 | 12:19pm ] |
It's been a while. My cruise was awesome, I've been having an amazing time with my life.
I'm looking at apartments in Barnes Plantation today with my Dad and futute roomate, Dana. Wooo! Graduating in about 10 school days. Stoked, and I think I'm gonna be a high school teacher, Keith wants to do that too. We could open up a Charm School, hahahah.
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[ April 2nd, 2009 | 9:14am ] |
I just don't know. I think I'm getting a pug, but I don't know if I can wait 2 more months. I've been looking at shelters and I've realized that none of them have the personality I want/had in dogs before. I still have time.
Exhale.
Anyways, I really got lucky with this new situation. I really did. I desreve it, not meaning to sound like a selfless person, but I really believe that evrything good will continue on, until I feel happy.
I leave for my cruise in two days. I sort of nervous, but only because I haven't spent that much time with my family in a long time. I haven't even seen them in a week. I'm packing tonight. This is sort of exciting because I don't really know what to expect. I do know the drinking age is 18 there, so I'm bound to have a blast with Papa John.
I've been a really crappy employee lately, but I can't help it, being sick kicks my ass, and makes me 100% unmotivated.
Graduation... I can not wait. I look at all these people aroundme right now and pray that after May 28th, I won't have to interact with them. We got a senior house. (Me, Keith, Kyle, Allison, Hannah, Sarah, and Marissa) I'm excited, I just can't stand one person in that list, but it won't really matter by then. Whatever.
Smile today.
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[ April 1st, 2009 | 5:11pm ] |
My future is decided: I'm going to be an art therapist for kids with cancer.
After 5 sessions of art therapy, a childs quality of life has improved 40%
I just don't know where to begin...
Bahamas in three days.
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[ March 27th, 2009 | 10:33am ] |
William Shakespeare once said "The world is a stage and we all are its players'' Waiting for every entry and exit. Yes it is absolutely true that the world is a stage and we all are participants in this big play called "life". There is very little information of the life of Shakespeare as a child; he was born to John and Mary Shakespeare in 1564, in Stratford-upon-Avon, Warwickshire. He had seven brothers and sisters: Joan, Margaret, William, Gilbert, Joan, Annie, Richard and Edmund, most of which did not survive to adulthood. He was educated in the local school and learned writing skills at a very young age. In his dusk-to-dawn school day, he also studied Latin and Greek. He later worked as a school master, lawyer, and a glover. Eventually he began his career in the theatre; no one knows how that important part of his life began. The life works of the Renaissance playwright and poet William Shakespeare inspired sonnets such as Sonnet 29 which reveals his inner feelings for his love.
During his life, Shakespeare wrote 37 plays, 2 narrative poems and 154 sonnets. In sonnets 127-154 he speaks of a dark woman, he has mixed feelings for. Shakespeare himself never published any of his plays. We read his plays today only because his fellow actors John Hemminges and Henry Condell. Along with all of his literature work, Shakespeare was also a Noble actor. In a world where the quality of the art form called "writing" is so often said to be rapidly diminishing, it is important for scholars of English literature to retain some studies of the true classics, such as Shakespeare. Everyday we use words or phrases which Shakespeare invented. There can be no doubt that knowledge of the works of William Shakespeare is necessary for any education of English literature to be considered complete and well rounded. The extraordinary writing skills with which Shakespeare created his accurate portrayals of human truth have not been replicated since his death, nearly four hundred years ago. Literature cannot survive without William Shakespeare.
A sonnet is a 14-line verse form usually having one of several conventional rhyme schemes. In Sonnet 29 Shakespeare begins by describing moments of sadness alone. During the course of the poem, he wishes to be someone with more prospects, someone more attractive, and someone with more friends. He reveals that he is least satisfied in the things he enjoys the most. These feelings are not unfamiliar to him. Shakespeare seems to gain a strange infatuation from wallowing in his self pity. Halfway through Sonnet 29 he experiences transcendence, as if his memories rejuvenate his spirit. During this sonnet, Shakespeare reflects mostly on himself and his pitiful feelings. In his “change of state” Shakespeare realizes that he is happy, if he looks hard enough.
Shakespeare caused a lot of controversy through his work. In the play Romeo and Juliet he writes crude comments about Juliet, which were also directed towards women of that time period, He hints that Juliet will learn to fall on her back (have sex) when she is older. He also crudely discusses penis size in The Taming of the Shrew where Curtis tells Grumio, "Away, you three-inch fool”, Grumio replies that he is at least a foot long. Shakespeare is argued to have been a homosexual; this idea came from his 126th Poem. Racism and Anti-Semitism often shows up in his work as well. In over half of his plays, Shakespeare writes in suicide. This occurs thirteen times throughout his work. Shakespeare invented many words and phrases, such as “assassination” "amazement," "bedazzle," "leapfrog," "fairyland," "puke" and "zany."and “the beast with two backs” References to birds in Shakespeare’s work was not uncommon.
William married a woman nearly twice his age. Anne Hathaway was 26 years old when William married her at age 18. They married at Temple Grafton, a village approximately five miles from Stratford. Anne Hathaway was said to be from Shottery. Shakespeare and wife had eight children, including daughter Susanna, twins Hamnet, Judith, and Edmund. Susanna received most of the Bard's fortune when he died. Due to Shakespeare’s busy schedule, he was not very much of a “family man”. While working, he was gone most of the year, and came back to visit his family only for Lent.
In 1605 Shakespeare’s hard work paid off and he reached his greatest financial gain when he became a joint owner of the Globe Theater. No one really knows how or when his career began in theater. He often acted privately for Queen Elizabeth I, and James I. Although Shakespeare was making a lot of money during his time he was not very happy. He was lonely, and felt abandoned, and bitter. Sonnet 29 was proof of his feelings at his peak time of popularity. His writing was ambiguous. In sonnet 29 he names the type of person he wishes to be. His depression could be derived from spending much time away from his family. He envies the success of others, even though he was living success himself. In Sonnet 29 he also rattles off impressive misfortunes if his life, as if he’s proud of the negativity in his life. At the end of the sonnet, Shakespeare reverses himself and finds happiness which could hold the hidden meaning in his life. He secretly enjoyed success.
While acting, Shakespeare mostly spent time with other actors. He was a commonly used actor, because he was bald, which made him look distinguished. Most of his money was earned through plays. Poetry was not something that Shakespeare did to make money. It didn’t bring in much money at all. Most of his writings took place when the theaters were shut down from the plague, and that was his last resort.
Shakespeare died on his supposed birthday at age 52. His cause of death was unknown, but one source states that it’s possible he died after drinking with his theater friends. He was buried at the Holy trinity Church in Stratford-upon-Avon. He left behind a generous will, most of which went to Susanna, which included a house and his best bed. Shakespeare apparently knew he was dying so one day he decided to engrave these words on his tomb stone: "Good friends, for Jesus' sake forebeare, to dig the bones enclosed here! Blest be the man that spares these stones, and curst be the man that moves my bones." This was a curse to anyone who tried to move his body. They still lie undisturbed.
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[ March 25th, 2009 | 9:05am ] |
As much as we fight and argue, and lie to eachother. I love you to death. And when you let yor heart shine for even just a second it makes me so happy to have you in my life. <3
(This probably isn't who you think it's about.)
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[ March 25th, 2009 | 8:57am ] |
$332 per person.
Includes flight (round trip) to Chicago. Plus a hotel room for 4 nights...
This is unheard of! Awesome price, always wanted to go to Chicago.
Let me know what you think.
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